As I begin typing this, it’s 08h00, the time that I would usually be starting work. I’ve been up since 06h30; I was tired of sleeping on my left side, and couldn’t get comfortable, so I figured that I might as well get up and enjoy some quiet time to myself before the rest of the family is awake and making noise.
Noticing that it was 08h00 made me remember that the midwife asked me yesterday if I felt that I had more or less energy than a week ago or further back. I don’t feel that I have any MORE energy than before, but I haven’t felt the incredible need to take a nap each day; if I don’t get one, as I did not get one yesterday, I’m not totally “dragging” until I can get to bed that night, and I attribute most of that to not needing to go work each weekday. Usually I don’t notice that burst of energy that some women get just before they go into labor, but I must say that I’ve been more motivated to work on projects–sewing, writing, etc.–than I have in the past few weeks and months, even if circumstances prevent me from actually getting to or completing them.
My midwife told me that I need to relax and do something enjoyable, something selfish, while I’m waiting for baby to come, so that’s what I plan to do today. I won’t worry about chores, and I’ll work on one of my personal projects. I still haven’t decided yet if I’ll make the “labor tea” or not, but I will do my best to keep from thinking about going into labor. Maybe that’s what my body needs – for me to put the thought out of my mind for it to happen. Maybe if I don’t think about it, it will happen? 🙂